everynite. everyday. it is all abt band. complains abt band. arguments in band. it is like. this world is jus band n piano. HONEY. im a musician. i a band member. i love music. without music im lost. but u dun see me or hear me complaining abt band bcoz forgodness sake it is boring. u keep telling me the band is slacking the band is this. if that is wat they are like then u cant change it. it is like u nt liking being picky n to dress up. i cant change it. n tat i worry.

i dunno. my frens come to me when they have relationship problems. n i myself cant handle properly.

u wan me to open up. i already did. n thank god i din open fully. u wan me to tell u wat i feel. n in the end. u get pissed or watever. i listened to u.

but did u listen to me. i told when u answer the phone. pls be gentle. n u jus did the same. i ask if u could jus dress up a little bit. n u ask me to tell u how n wat. otehr guys have gf who is involve into things similar to u but yet they both can have time out. ok fine. u have a curfew. np. but im jus asking a day out a week. n u cant. i cant hold ur hands when im out wif u n wat ever there is. God damn it. im jealous when i see other ppl. even more jealous when i see my good fren,Edmund n Chuan Xin happy wif each other. n i acnt have tat.

everyday on the net or phone. it is the same topic. BAND. isnt there other problems in ur life?? u wan me to share my problems wif u n yet u nt. ur merely telling me the problem n not exactly sharing.

i dunno.

mayb i sud jus be like my bro, jie shen. commit life to music n guitar. u seem happier wif ur piano. then mayb i shall gain back my happiness wif my guitar.

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